All These Complicated Feeling

it is now Wednesday, 2 days to go to the new adventure of my life. Yes, absolutely I count it, I dunno why it makes me appreciate every single second in my life in Surabaya lately.

well, how about my feeling?
it's definitely complicated, it's like these (feeling) are just too much.
I feel worried.
I feel afraid.
I feel sad (by leaving my Surabaya and all the people behind)
I feel nervous
I feel I dunno.. weird? as this is my first time leaving town to go out far away from home and for a long time..

BUT..

yet, I (also) feel..
So excited!
So impatient about my adventurous journey!
So strong!
So free!
So challenged!
So dash!
So happy all the time!

and absolutely..
SO ME! :DD

well, actually my mind full of complicated things and my heart filled with indescribable feeling, each like a paradox on the others. Cause I feel so worried but at the very same time I feel so glad.

however, I just don't care too much..
all I want is just experience something new in my life.
and trust me,
I CAN'T WAIT FOR THAT JOURNEY TO START! YAAAAAAYYY :DDD